REDISCOVERING THE MUSE:
Finding Our Personal Sources of Inspiration
copyright 1989 by Tracy Marks
published in Women of Power magazine, winter 1989-90
continued from muses4.htm
INVITATION TO THE MUSES
Most of us develop internal thermostats when we are young, set to a
certain temperature of happiness or unhappiness. However much we suffer,
we nevertheless prefer to keep our thermostat on a familiar temperature,
rather than experience for any length of time inner peace, joy or passion.
We may find fleeting moments of contact with our Muses more tolerable
living in close harmony with their voices. The familiar, however unsatisfying
it may be, does not expose us to the terror of the unknown, of separating
from our past, of contacting and living within the quiet but awesome
of sacred experience.
Many of us, having lost touch with the dreams and fantasies of our
childhood, or the most pleasurable experiences of our past, despair
lack of meaning in our lives. Such internal messages as "it's impossible,"
"I don't have the time and money," and "I'm not good enough" have kept
from pursuing and from remembering our deepest dreams. Wanting what
we dare not believe we can have is painful, and becoming large enough
move through our fears is difficult, so we stop wanting and then question
emptiness of our lives. Or we focus unduly on our suffering, our problems,
and deprivations, and blind ourselves to the potential joys within
Inspiration does not merely happen; we block it with our own negative
attitudes, inner messages and self-sabotaging behaviors. In order to
recover our inspiration or passion, we must choose to create the inner
outer conditions which awaken and fuel our life energy. We must want
experience greater aliveness; we must care enough to make choices which
enliven us; we must dare to create the changes in our lives which will
enable us to hear and live in close contact with our sources of inspiration.
"I've been absolutely terrified every moment of my life," said Georgia
O'Keefe, "and I've never let it keep me from doing a single thing that
wanted to do." (6) When we choose to attune ourselves to our
inspiration and to hear our Muses, our desire for life, real life,
greater than our fear of change.
Reconnecting with our life source is possible. Our Muses live -- in
own unique, personal forms within everyone of us. They may lie buried
our past; they may appear when we open our inner or outer eyes to the
present moment; they may awaken when we embrace our visions of the
future and dare to dream.
We can experience our Muses, we can learn to listen to their melodies,
to the sacred silence from which their songs are born. We can, as we
discover them, uncover and recover our lost and latent selves, and
(1) "Alyce Cornyn-Selby: The Creative Spirit Lives Life,"
Women in Unison
volume 3:4, August/September 1989, p.8. Alyce Cornyn-Selby is
the author of Self-Sabotage - Solve It!, I'm Going to Change
and Move Away, and I Don't Have To and You Can't Make Me.
(2) Graves, Robert, The White Goddess, Farrar, Straus
and Giroux, New York,
1948, p. 24
(3) Graves, p. 391
(4) from Hesiod's Theogony, quoted in Edith Hamilton's Mythology,
New American Library, New York, 1942, p. 37.
(5) Gray, Elizabeth Dodson, "Women's Experience and Naming
of Power, issue 12, winter 1989, pp. 10-11.
(6) quoted by Alyce Cornyn-Selby, Women in Unison magazine, p.11.